I don’t know, I have so much on my mind right now that i don’t know what to do. The only thing that kept me going was seeing all the people who wrote “Love” on there wrists and tweeted it to me. Made my whole day a million times better.
Life is a little rough right now, It seems like many things are missing and i don’t have a clue of what they are. I miss the wrong person who keeps finding ways to hurt me, And i don’t know how to get over that. I haven’t been sleeping at all, I haven’t had much of an appetite. Just haven’t been feeling like doing nothing.
I feel drained. I feel like my body can’t go on. I have no energy, My eyes are closing and i feel like i could fall a sleep for days. I have so much stress, so much hurt inside of me. I just can’t seem to figure out how to make things better.
I just wanted to say I’m sorry. To all of you, To all of my followers. Things have been so off lately that i just didn’t want anything to do with anyone. I didn’t even have the strength to talk to my friends or get on here. I reached a very low level of depression and i didn’t know how to get out of it. Things kept getting complicated and there still complicated but each and every day things are a little easier to handle. I’ve had so much conflict with my dad, So much yelling in my face so much violence, It just ate me out and i couldn’t deal with it. I got to a point were i got off Facebook and twitter and i was thinking about Deleting Tumblr. But if it wasn’t for all my friends i would have really given up. I’m just ready for my life to change again and have everything back to how i used to. I can’t take it anymore. I’m just tired of everything and having my dad around. I want to be happy again. I just don’t know how. I recently went to the Dr, I was told i have insomnia. I’ve been getting a lot of Anxiety attacks out of no where, The Dr prescribed some pills for me to relax, Vitamins, & Something that is supposed to give me oxygen for my brain. Of course, He didn’t buy them (my dad). He has better things to do, Like waste money on alcohol and be a dick. So Now i have to wait till i get money to do it myself.
I’m sorry i have been M.I.A. I’ve been super buisy with exams and school and all that junk and work i just haven’t had time to be on here. Then my internet hasn’t been working as good as it should be so it’s all been a complete mess :C I promise to be posting more often. I used to post every day until i exceeded my post limit but now i post about 30 things and get off. I’m sorry loves! Thank you for being patient tough you guys make me very happy :)
Love you all, goodnight :)
Sometimes you don’t need some people in your life. Not everyone is your friend and not everyone walks into your life for the right reasons. You call someone your best friend and develop feelings and you are completely stuck on that person and then, BAM they walk out of your life. Everything they said to you, All the “You mean so much to me, I’ll never leave, I don’t want you out of my life..” Etc, Ends up vanishing in the air and meaning nothing. You know what, Be happy they are out of your life. I know i am. I don’t need people in my life who only lead me on, Pretend to care and then walk out of me. I’ve never walked out on anyone. I can honestly say that I’ve been there for many people, Even the one’s who have hurt me and regardless of what ANYONE has done to me I’ve always been here with open arms and have helped them. Yes that’s my down fall but I’m not a bad person and i don’t need people in my life who don’t appreciate me or the things i do for them. It’s as simple as that. I don’t give a fuck if the person I’m talking about reads this, The next time i post something I’ll put his name on it. You can just go fuck yourself with your bitch. Enjoy. you fucking liar.
- Oscar: I like your face
- Me: I like you
I’m honestly just very happy. I’m thankful for the people in my life & for the one’s who have walked out, THANK YOU. I don’t depend on you or anyone. I guess now that my life is on track and I’m being more positive and everything I’m feeling a lot better about myself and about life. I just can’t wait to be back in Texas. I’ve got this sick feeling and i know it’s because i miss home. Mexico is great and all but i miss Texas so very much! I miss my friends, My life, MY school all of that. I miss it. Life is getting a lot better. I’m going into beauty school soon so i can follow my dreams and reach my goals and I’m working really hard. I just couldn’t possibly ask for anything else. I don’t need a boy in my life. I’m in love. MY heart is completely taken but I’m happy single and there is no way I’m going to let anything or anyone bring me down. Thank you to all of my friends and to the people that were there for me when i fell and hit my face. Thank you for the one’s who gave me a shoulder to cry on. I appreciate everything everyone has done for me. I’m sorry for the one’s i didn’t treat the best during the hard times but thank you for sticking around. I love you guys with my life. I’m a happy person, Ready for life, Ready for changes. I know who I’m going to be and who I’m going to become and i only want to share it with the people who helped me get here.
Love you guys soooo very much, I couldn’t ask for better people in my life. <3. & I love youu, You know who you are. I’m sorry you walked out on me, I’ll prove to you that you lost the BEST thing you will EVER have. <3